Loosing a Friendship After 9 Years (How It All Crumbled Down)

Hey my TRU Seekers,

Everybody has at least been through this situation once in their lifetime, loosing a friend. If you haven't something is obviously wrong with that picture. 

Let me start by telling you how it all happened. 

My friend (no names involved this time) was going through a tough time with bullying. She has been since 1st grade, but this year it really seemed to have hit her. They joked about her weight and how she's silly. I'm the same way as her (looks) and they don't harm me. Is it because I can easily twist their words with my music? Possibly... She's kind of the opposite of me. I'm a musical person, always out there and taking the risks and trying out for it all. Yes, she does take risks. But she's afraid of being rejected, such as for show choir. She didn't make it last year nor this year, it's hard to not make it. She tries to be musical, but she tries WAY more than feeling the music in my opinion... A tad bit nasally. 

Anyway, they found her as a easy target I guess. She WAS such a strong person, and she still is. I always tried my best to help her and sometimes I'd even fight back with them and tell them to bud off. Which then I become a target, but you see I don't care so they easily walk away. I always told her to ignore them, it may seem hard but the more you do the less they'll harm you.  She came to me for comfort, and I comforted her the best I could.

I was her body guard for the beginning of our middle school years. I know I can't always protect her, but I try. 

This year bullying got to her about her weight. She stopped eating, my eyes can't tell much detail. But during lunch hour she'd always bring up that "I stopped eating!" or "I'm counting calories, dropping jean sizes" Blah! Honestly after she left the table we'd all mumble how we don't care! Good for her, but we don't care! NONE of us wanted to get into her drama! She wasn't very good at finding her timings on when to say things, she's an open-book, that's probably why. 

One day she started talking about calories and the whole table rolled their eyes, and I had it. I did a wrong thing and lashed out on her, but I DON'T regret it. I meant what I said. After that weekend, I wrote her a letter. I told her "We need a break in our friendship, we're happy for you but we don't care about the calories!" I said more, but I don't have the letter since I gave it to her.

She wrote back saying "I'm happier this way, and I AM eating, I was so depressed before, if you want a break alright."

It broke my heart... She was happier before all this crap..

She started being this way once she met this new girl, I'll call her #1.

#1 stopped eating, that's when S (my friend) also did. She became her new number one best friend. I knew I was going to loose S. S started wearing make-up just like #1. Foundation, eye-liner. Nothing wrong with that, but I knew her attitude would change and it did. She became a stupid girl, thinking she's cool. SHE ISN'T BEING HERSELF! And it kills me!!!! She doesn't realize it at all.

After a month of not at all talking to each other, maybe saying hi but that's it. I knew our friendship was over. It tears me.... but it was her choice and mine as well of course. She simply changed (attitude and physically) and I couldn't keep up. She wasn't the same best friend I had 4 months ago.. Weird how people change so quickly.

It makes me sad, but one day I'll get over it.. And maybe one day we'll be friends again. As time goes by, we'll see.

Have you guys ever lost a long friendship over a simple thing? Comment down below.

Be You, Stay True, Don't Change For Others...

-Teri♥

Thanksgiving Transitioning to Christmas (FINAL COUNTDOWN)

Hey my TRU Seekers,

How have you all been? And how was your Thanksgiving?

Mine was pretty great, celebrated my father's 56th birthday. Also celebrated his birthday and Thanksgiving with my neighbor's the West'ssss (as my family calls them). This week will defiantly go into a great memory for my mind. Haven't really felt this happy (of memories) in a while. Probably because not much has really happened. I will say this, for what I am thankful for. I am thankful for my musical talent to be able to play multiple instruments, to be able to have a wide vocal range, to sing, and I am very thankful for my education. Most students say "I hate school" or "I wish school never existed". People don't realize not everybody in the world is fortunate enough to have an education. To learn. I'm thankful that I am learning, so one day I can teach others. Hopefully you all can to.

What are you thankful for?

Now that Thanksgiving is over it's the final countdown (IT'S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!!) For Christmas. Got my Christmas tree and all the decorations out on Thanksgiving. Love it, I always feel the love with bright Christmas lights.. I don't know. How do you get when you decorate for Christmas?

The tree is always my cat's favorite place to hide. Although we can ALWAYS see them.. Nice try Casper. But he sleeps there. I call him my "present" since he's under the tree. Just sleeping there, me being like "Gee, wonder what I got". I know he isn't my present though obviously.

My cats (Mossimo & Casper) both have mini stalkings. It's really cute! Wonder what to get my cats for Christmas... as weird as that sounds I believe they deserve more!        

Anyway enough about my cats. Once November is over, I then only have ONE MONTH left until our FIRST show choir concert! I'm kind of nervous now, because nobody really has the dances down. I am a very loud choir singer, but I seem to be the only one. I hear my self WAY better than I should be able to! Hopefully everybody gets all they need to down before January other wise we ARE SCREWED!

But I have faith in our group, and I know we will do our best and learn everything. I'll defiantly be working hard this next month, dancing and singing! I need to work on dancing the most.

I do have a group solo with my two best friends (Whitney & Liz)! For the song "Brighter Than The Sun". I'm excited. My teacher placed me to sing in the middle of all of us... I feel pretty special for that. :-p

Anyways, what has been going on in your life? And what will be going on for the next month? How's your holiday?

Be Grateful,
Teri♥

Irresponsible Teachers?!

Hey Guys,

Sorry I haven't blogged in a long time. Nothing to actually blog about I suppose.
But here's a situation I came across recently at school, like legit.. yesterday.
My history (shall not be named) homework for section one was put in the grades as MISSING.
Here's the story behind it..
Last Tuesday during TA (homeroom), I went to her room to finish the 10 point section. My friend Amanda finished at the same time as I did (we didn't sit by each-other so NO we did NOT CHEAT. She called us cheaters one time -_-). Anyway, I DID turn it into her. Hand to hand, teacher to student, face to face. Not passed around from student, to student, to student. I missed a BAND LESSON which to you may not be a big deal, but I am a music GEEK! So DUH I need as much help as I possibly can!!
I went to go talk to her after class, she said "You never turned it in", never turned it in... NEVER TURNED IT IN! I was about to go RAGE on her! (With not on.. erm..)
I'm giving her this weekend, if she doesn't find it. I'm going right up to her give her MY story with my details.
Cause I know for a FACT I TURNED IT IN! It makes me so mad! I'm down a grade now because SHE LOST IT! (Which down a grade now was from B+ to a C-) My mom told me to stick to how I feel, so I will defiantly stick to how I feel...
Have you guys ever felt this way? Or has a teacher ever lost a homework of yours?
Comment below, ask me any questions, or anything else to blog about.

Stick with the truth,
Teri♥